Still in a Nook

Have you ever wondered… how it is like to be forgotten by people?

I used to. But now I know how it feels like already.

I know. I should take the initiative myself too and ask people out…so when I asked my friends to call me when they have plans to go out, I thought they really would… just like the old times.

Old times? What exactly happened to make that ‘old times’? What is it that I did???
It is kinda insensible, to be thinking about stuff like that. But it hurts to know the possibility of people loving you less than you love them. But anyway. Fuck. I don’t know how much I need to catch up, what I need to do in order for my friends to consider me in their list for shopping buddies, dinner buddies and chilling out buddies. I probably rank at the bottom few.

Ahh I’m so childish to be affected by trivial stuff…

My time is not all for Weikit. It never has been. I am not a person that forgets all about her friends during a relationship and only go back to them after a breakup. That’s why it really pisses me off when people say that they don’t want to disturb our ‘er ren shi jie’. WHAT ER REN SHI JIE! Oh my goodness.

If my friends keep thinking that I am constantly clinging to him and that all my time is spent with him, I might as well break up with him in order to let my friends accept me again. I want to go out with you guys. I want to catch up with Linzi and have long chats after dinner. I want to meet up with DGT for supper and laugh about people in the entertainment world even if I don’t know them. I want to do so many things with you all but I cannot possibly call you guys everyday to ask whether anyone is going out and whether I can join them. Why is it so difficult for me to see you guys? And why is it not for the rest? What is it that I did????

Aww man. I think I’m really a weak girl after all.